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Its a little girl! How cool is that! She is perfect, everything is fine, and the scan was great! No problems!
Its been a very busy time with Mom gone , but she will be home again tomorrow! , CANT WAIT!

Oh and look what arrived today!

20 weeks today! Half way baby!

hahaha preggo brain is fulling kicking in at this point! I was walking in town and getting all these emails from various companys today saying , well done you are half way! , and im like... why are they all emailing today?? hahaha then i realised in the car that its wednesday, and its exactly half way!

Well done baby! keep going!

Life is good right now, things are falling into place, and i must admit, im getting very excited for next monday night! really looking forward to finding out what its going to be!

2 days of work now from tomorrow onwards , and then i have saturday off, and sunday is going to be a busy one, monday too actually! so time is going fly!

Oma flies away on Monday , everyone is really looking forward to her coming, and there are going to be fun things happening there, Doek and Reg have ordered her fav resturant and surprising her with Peet and Fiona being there , she will love it!

symptoms that im feeling at the moment are REALLLY sensitive sore teeth, so sore i cant brush, but i have too, so from tomorrow onwards im going to start 3x per day for a week and see if it helps

I ordered some doppler gels tonight, i have tried with other products and all i know is that when i used the gel , i had a really good signal and now not so, i would really like to record it and keep that on the computer. Let cross fingers!

Tonight i are garlic fried shrimp.. but not i have such bad breath that its making me nausious haha , off to bed, its a early start tomorrow!

Something Sentimental this week , enjoy!

Week 19! almost to an end!

Wow the time is flying now, so much going on! Our week with the Special guest was awesome! weather no so , but hey, cant have it all  , and it didnt slow us down one bit!

Today I had my 19 week appointment at the Midwife, it went very well, I have had some urine release this last week , so they are sending me to the Physio next week to get some exercises, as its a little early to happen and it could be a bigger problem later and too see myself in adults pampers is not really an option!

The Baby was moving around alot , and the heart was strong so i was relieved , im still very dubious about it all , i think i will be alot calmer after the 20 week scan  , that everything is fine and i have seen the baby.

I have been doing alot of thinking and brainstorming lately, alot of decisions to make, and things to arrange, im worried about a few things and trying to make measures in time. I took my finances under the loop and im going through it all, only to come to a shocking discovery, my new pride and joy car is ridiculously expensive to run, the fuel consumption is just way over the limit, and thats all fine now, but for next year, i need to change up the prios, so its going im affaid, i have been thinking about it for a while, but i eventually came to a decision  last week, its just the smart thing to do, nice cars will come later.  Im going to sell it now, drive my old Ka till the baby gets here, and then buy something cheap and cheerful but safe.

Sob! hahaha ill live!

alot of photo appointments coming up, i kinda had everything on hold when i was so sick, but now that im feeling alot beter, im catching up , and trying to get my training session with Laura Vink. Cannot WAIT for that! Watch this space!



song of the week? mmm, the Traveling Wilburys

Week 17

Alot went on this week, but very little to do with the baby really. Monday and Tuesday where work days, tuesday being extremely busy and i left exhausted! didnt even have the puff to cook, just put myself straight to bed.

Wednesday I had a meeting with the estate agent and took my apartment of the market, i have been trying to sell for a year, well , trying is a big word, lets just say its been on the market, but i just dont want to move at the moment, I would really like to have the baby here, and with my luck it will sell in the next 2 months! hahaha. So its off the market till next summer, phew!

Thursday went walking in the park with selma , and then took my car to the cleaners, and spent a hour vacuuming , to say it was dirty would be an understatement! haha, and i found the smell! it was a chocomel pakje from about oh 6 months ago! under the passengers seat.

Friday we got ready for the party, and saturday it was Party in the park 3rd edition . It really was a huge success and everyone came, except jeroen and stan due to illness, but Daan did make it and it really was enjoyable! Food as excellent and Company was brill, we all stayed till the last minute of light and we ended up having to clear up with all the car lights on haha!

Today was clean up day and rest, i was exhausted and slept till 11! energy is still not what it used to be, and once during the party i got up too quickly and got horrible pains in my lower ab , wow that hurt!

this week we have a secret visitor! cant say who cause she has family in holland and she is not seeing them haha but its going to be great!
looking forward to my scan next week friday, i havent really felt the baby for a few days, so hearing a heartbeat would be nice at this point. But i have read on the internet that its pretty normal at this point , everything is moving again .

Music this week is Roxette , this is a new song, from the new album, and im in love , the lyrics are just perfect, and her voice is more then perfect :-)

Week 16!

Alot happened this week, namely, starting work again! It felt good to be back , i was seriously getting very bored at home.

This is my last week of mothers for mothers , and i must admit, proberly a little selfish thinking of me, but im glad, its alot of work, and i keep needing to put a peg on my nose to open the bottles! But all for the good cause, im glad that i did it, and glad that phase is over. Tomorrow ill be putting out those famous blue bottles for the last time!

 

 Things i have noticed changing? 

• Starting to feel the baby alot more and feel the actual feeling of the baby, and not just indigestion.
• Changing clothing, jean do not fit anymore, this week i shoveled out a small fortume at Noppies Amstelveen. 
• Water retention is back in my ankels , i had it before i was pregnant, its something that started when taking hormones, but when i was so sick with morning sickness , it was gone, well its back! but no symptons really
• I am feeling pretty emotional this week, can get quite down , quite fast. 
• Definately have more energy again, while sick i would sleep anything up to 3 hours in the afternoon, and this is the first week i didnt. Today was actually the first day i had a nap again, quite a long one, but my nights have been quite broken due to peeing. 

This weekend im going to take it easy and get some paperwork done, i have some ebaying to do and some cds and files to file away. Do a nice lot of washing to get prepared for the week. Tomorrow im going to do some food shopping for the weekend.


I went to the Midwife last week and heard the heartbeat again, felt good! Scan to say Boy or Girl is sceduled for the 26th September!

and last but not least, I have a new song that i just feel has something to do with the baby, The week before i found out i was pregnant, i heard this song by chance 3X!! it was so weird. It was once on the radio, i love it, then i walked into work and the shift before ours was playing it loud on youtube , and later in the week , someone had tagged it on facebook. I was curious, it was so beautiful, that when i found out i was pregnant, i looked it up on the internet . His voice is just so beautiful, and tragically, he has passed away, but i just have a feeling about it , its my baby song!

Big News! late news!

This post is long overdue, but its safe to say that Operation Soda Pop is a success!!

i am this week already 15 weeks pregnant, and to be honest , after 4.5 years trying and dreaming, these 4 months have been nothing that i had planned! I thought i would be on this enormous high and do all sorts of planning and announcing! Nothing of the sort! Firstly, Let start with the whole story!

I had for the first time ever .. lost hope in falling pregnant, I went to see a very renowned gyno in amsterdam for a 2nd opinion, and after waiting 3 months for an appointment, went to go and see him and he was the sweetest man , old chinese, and i was having the hardest time understanding him haha, If i think back now , it was very comical!. I had been trying with the private donor for 6 months and was starting to loose hope as it was again not happening. ( lets not forget the 6x KID and 6x IUI before this ) He checked me out and gave me a complete clean bill of health, but just said some really wise words to me. He told me to take my private donor , and go and do IVF , stop wasting time, it would be a fool proof formula according to him.

I approached the donor and he was willing to attempt IVF with me , a godsend!  I told him that we should stop with monthly insemination and go ahead with IVF, but he said, no lets keep trying until its our turn at the hospital, with can still take up to 3 months. I reluctantly agreed not seeing the point, and did an insemination the next month , but didnt think anything more of it. I went to my hospital appointment and was accepted into a private IVF clinic with the donor.

The starting of the  IVF process was actually in full swing , when i received a sms from my lovely friend asking me if i had got my period yet.. I had completely forgotten, and no it had not started yet, but i still gave it no thought, until 5 days later, when i still hadnt started , and although i was feeling like my period was in full swing, it wasnt!  That was a friday evening, and i had decided that if the show hadnt started by morning, i would eventually test, i didnt want to repeat the experience of the past when i tested , got a neg and then 1 hour later my period started! , that was my body saying to me, nah nah you just blew another 26 euros on a test for nothing!

The next morning, i felt bad , but still nothing , but i didnt actually have an expensive test anymore, stop spending fortunes on Clear blue. I had a very simple test that i have received from Daan. Very simple, but i did it . I couldnt look, so i walked away and cleaned the kitty litter box ( the only thing your NOT supposed to do when pregnant ! ) Walked back and there was a faint second line!!! , i couldnt believe it , and blamed it on the cheapness of the test, this couldnt be happening , i needed clear blue, something that said, you are pregnant .. or not ofcourse! it was 7.30 am and there wasnt a store open... that was the longest hour of my life.. i watched tellsell tv and talked to the cats and eventually at 8.30, thinking the store would open at 9, left in my car , and took a slow long route to the store .. only to find it opened at 8 already! hahaha. I wonder how many other woman they have that turn up first thing and buy pregnancy tests and pregnancy vitimens ( just in case ) ..

I flew home and did the test again! and yes sir..

by now the cheap test had all the time to sort itself out and was also alot clearer

to be fair, and honest , i sat and cried for about 5 mins, I just didnt think it would happen anymore and it was such a relief and such a confirmation that everything would be ok and that i could fall pregnant.

A friend of mine had a miscarriage and i asked her at the time , wasnt that the hardest thing that ever happened to you? trying for so long and then loosing the baby? and she said, yes and no, yes it was a great dissapointment , but i was also just happy to have fallen pregnant, knowing that i now could and it was going to be ok . For the first time i could really understand what she meant by that , because after 4 years , i had lost hope and started to think that i couldnt have a baby, and now , holding that positive test, that all washed away, and i knew that it was possible.

But very soon after that, maybe a few days.. things started to change.. hahaha , i was still working fulltime and one nightshift , after dinner, i suddenly felt very sick, went to the bathroom and was sick, very sick, about every hour for 4 hours until there just wasnt anything left to get sick about, yet i was still wrenching . I told my boss i felt like death and that i had food poisoning, i needed to go home, it was 2 am. Not sure how to get home, i waited untill i was sick again and then straight home , just making it home before i started again!, i was exhausted. And that was the start of downhill really, for nearly 2.5 months i was sick to the bone, throwing up 2 out of 3 meals day, thankfully the only good thing was i lost 10 kilos! I couldnt work anymore, saw the dr every 2-3 days for 10 days straight because they where scared i might be dehydrating. One funny moment was i was lying on his examination table and he was check to see if i was dehydrating, and i said to him, i really just feel like shit right now.  he looked at me at said : Yeah well im not going to lie to you, you look it ! . hahaha he is an american and i can normally have a good laugh with him.

So now , 15 weeks along, im feeling TONS better, im eating, my stomach is growing , drinking loads, and starting to function again . Tomorrow I have a meeting with work to see when and where i can start again. I am feeling something in my stomach, ofcourse not the baby kicking or anything, but it feels tender at times, like i have a giant pulled muscle at times! Its almost time for new jeans, mine arent comfortable anymore...

SO that was my pregnancy story! Ill be updating more and more now and id like to change the theme of the blog a little as time goes by, so keep tuned!

Newest addition to the family

My Boys! man im crazy cakes bout these kids!